How Did I Get Here?
I was recently asked what drives me. “Why are you so purpose and vision driven?”
While I am focused and aware of my purpose now, trust me, this wasn’t always the case. I’ve dealt with insecurities, very low self-esteem and lack of self-confidence the majority of my life. I’m also a domestic abuse survivor and was a single parent.
There have been times that life was hard. Times I thought I really wasn't going to make it from one minute to the next. Can you imagine life being so painful that you weren't sure if mentally you could hold on from one minute to the next?
If someone had told me, I would be doing the things I’ve done and have planned, I would have told you absolutely not. To think that the woman that would never speak in front of an audience is now speaking to women’s groups, facilitating workshops and hosting a monthly conversation live on social media. Or, that the woman that was so insecure would be boldly walking in purpose and empowering other women to do the same.
That woman would have never imagined or acknowledged God had placed gifts in her that would be helping other women create strategies to move dreams from thoughts and visions to reality.
So, how did I get here? How did I move from that woman to the strong and confident woman I am today?
Well, I was tired of being tired. I was tired of just existing and going through life in somewhat of a daze. A woman with no purpose or direction.
I wanted change, happiness and peace in my life. I wanted direction. I knew there was more to life and more I was to do.
I knew the One who could give me all those things and more but I knew I had to put in the work. I was broken, didn't know my value or worth. I knew it would be a journey and it was one that I desperately needed to pursue. I knew this journey to wholeness might be painful but I knew I had to deal with and acknowledge things I had buried for years. My prayer during this time was “ God, I trust you.”
I knew God had a plan for my life and I wanted to fulfill that plan and purpose. I prayed, fasted, connected with positive people and started the journey. (Shout out to my support system!)
During one Sunday sermon, my pastor said “Before God created the person, He created the purpose.” We were created because there was a purpose God intended for us to fulfill!
Now, the change didn’t happen overnight. But one day the insecure woman began to value herself and know her worth. To forgive herself and others. Sadness was replaced with joy!
I prayed for God to reveal my purpose, make things clear and to continually give me wisdom, knowledge and direction.
I shared all of the above to answer the question I shared earlier: “Why are you so purpose and vision driven?”
I can tell you the journey was hard and oftentimes very emotionally painful, but so worth it. When a woman knows her value and worth, there is no stopping her!
I pray you find (or use if you’ve already found it) your purpose.